Eventually
It is not everyday that you are woken up by someone pulling and yanking your hair. Okay it is. My orange cat Cosmo seems to have a need to crawl into my skin especially when it is 4am and all I want to do is get a few more hours of sleep. I then realize he is hungry, so I feed him a can. Rolling over and trying to sleep again, the orange menace is back on my head pulling my hair and begging for food yet again. “He’s a cat” I tell myself as my mind wakes up to a million different thoughts.
It’s August 1st, 2025.
Our fifth August living for the hope of it all and having a theme song for it (Thank you, Taylor Swift).
How has it been five years? Where has the time gone?
I realize I am not alone in these thoughts.
These thoughts cross many minds every single day ever since the pandemic, with so many becoming desensitized to dying and death among many other things.
I’m awake at 5:49 am on a Friday morning, which means I have to wake up and commute to my job (that I am grateful to have but it is on the other side of town).
Welcome to Los Angeles.
Yet, I am already awake. Mind racing against the sunrise so I can try and slip back in bed before the anxiously attached orange cat eventually realizes I am gone.
I have been waiting far too long for eventually.
Eventually, I’ll get my degree.
I did that. In December of 2023 I graduated with a degree in Digital Media and Communication and man am I proud of that.
Eventually, I’ll apply to where I want to be.
Actively doing that. There are not enough hours in the day.
Eventually….
The list can go on. I can sit here and spiral my words and tell you every single detail of every single thought that passes through my head but that is for a journal, not a blog.
As I saw the media getting more and more saturated, I felt fear of sharing my voice. I accomplished all of these incredible milestones and let them all live in my head instead of sharing with “the class”.
You are my class. If you are reading this, you are my neighbor, my friend, someone who has far more inherent worth than you can imagine.
This is a challenge to myself to keep up with.
A Friday morning blog that is public and an outlet for my creativity, thoughts and a community-builder.
Even if one person reads this, I would be so ecstatic to sit with one person and tell them all my racing morning thoughts. Eventually, There could be an entire room full of people I’m speaking to on Fridays. This is meant to be a conversation.
Every week brings new music, new ideas, new beginnings. Every day does.
Consider this blog like a book club, but for short attention spans.
Prompt:
Make a playlist this week with songs that remind you of summer, however that looks for you. Include songs from 5 years ago, 10 years ago, or songs released last night. Take a moment to slow down and listen and enjoy the music and put it in a silly little playlist on your silly little streaming service of choice. Mine is Spotify and here is playlist #1 of my ByEliseRyan blog, https://open.spotify.com/playlist/109rdG6y8GZdmbpOyeGmFF?si=f76sVeGpSM2zx1mktSMY_g&pi=X0Aq1PXfTzm0g
With Love,
Elise Ryan
